star-crossed melodies

hummm…

today was my birthday. please note, birthday…not birthdate. yes, it was sweet saturday, my birthday. i was suppose to do something restricting at that day but i didn’t. somehow i knew that it would be broken so i chose not to do it.

it was worth it.

in the morning my uncle came. we had a little talk. it was pretty cool.
had a great lunch.
finishing touch: awesome night! it’s been a while since the round-table-conference has been held. that night i had one, and it was totally cool!

looking forward to have a very great days ahead of me. at least until my birthdate…

i hope the crisis won’t hit me hard like it was one year ago, although i can feel it in the air. i’m weak, but those surrounded me made me strong.

keep it as it has to be…beauty, simplicity, courtesy, company, fair-seeming.

i couldn’t believe it that it has almost been a year since the final engagement. another month to pass and there were are…the moment. well, i’ve been doing some flashbacks these days during the month. i refered back to my old notes and letters, also blogs. i found some, quite, interesting.

one of these days, one year ago, i, myself, was filled with a lot of anxiety. during those times i felt heavy crisis of spirit, uneasiness, too many dark and ill-thoughts. when i read again several of my references (notes, letters, etc). i couldn’t help but smile to myself, "what a different person i was back then and now."

surely, the final engagement had totally change myself to who (or what) i am right now. was it for the better, or the worse…i don’t know.

it’s been a year and i still haven’t fully recovered from the vivid experience imprinted by the final engagement itself. i wonder. what about the other subjects related to it? how do they feel about it at the moment? still the same, periodically changing, withering, or else…still stuck with it.

heh…